"My body could crumble to the ground."

"My body could crumble to the ground."

Embroidered digital photo collage with layers of burned and quilted bamboo paper on archival paper. || 42 x 29.7 cm

My Postpartum series examines the loneliness, exhaustion, depression, and anxiety that women can experience with motherhood by juxtaposing idealized domesticity and femininity with the isolation and confusion the no one likes to talk about. 

I combine images of beautifully designed minimalist homes from interior design magazines and books with women from modernist and contemporary paintings (Picasso, Modigliani, Diebenkorn, etc.). I cut the women out of old art museum postcards, deliberately leaving sharp and awkward edges. I then scan and digitally layer the women into these interiors to consciously exploit the contrast between the unattainable perfection of these homes (no noisy toys, no piles of papers, no laundry baskets) and the abstract women who appear to be suffering and sad. I print the images on different textured papers, blurring some layers and leaving others focused. The layers are then torn, burned, and sewn together to represent both the fragility and strength of mothers through the paper itself. 

The titles for each work are quotes from real women that come from the podcast, “Terrible, Thanks for Asking” on postpartum depression. 

"I have to do it on my own."

"I have to do it on my own."

Embroidered digital photo collage with layers of burned and quilted bamboo paper on archival paper. || 42 x 29.7 cm

"I still have to make other people happy."

"I still have to make other people happy."

Embroidered digital photo collage with layers of burned and quilted bamboo paper on archival paper. || 42 x 29.7 cm

"I don't want any of this."

"I don't want any of this."

Embroidered digital photo collage with layers of burned and quilted bamboo paper on archival paper. || 42 x 29.7 cm

"I never feel good enough."

"I never feel good enough."

Embroidered digital photo collage with layers of burned and quilted bamboo paper on archival paper. || 42 x 29.7 cm

"My mind is paranoid all the time."

"My mind is paranoid all the time."

Embroidered digital photo collage with layers of burned and quilted bamboo paper on archival paper. || 42 x 29.7 cm

"I feel guilty all the time."

"I feel guilty all the time."

Embroidered digital photo collage with layers of burned and quilted bamboo paper on archival paper. || 42 x 29.7 cm

"I don't want this life."

"I don't want this life."

Embroidered digital photo collage with layers of burned and quilted bamboo paper on archival paper. || 42 x 29.7 cm

“I am exhausted all the time…”

“I am exhausted all the time…”

Embroidered digital photo collage with layers of burned and quilted bamboo paper on archival paper || 50 x 65cm